looks like dylan and I are done and I don't really know how to feel about it. Im upset because i'm losing my best friend, but I think i'm actually doing something for me for once. I just don't know how i'm going to survive honestly. My rent is still due from the 1st, and I still dont have a car. We'll get there eventually. I guess. I did my tarot reading today too, and it told me i need to prepare for seperation. ironically the 5 of pentacles was laying out of the deck too, heres the meaning online for it...
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In the Five of Pentacles, two people walk through the icy wind and snow; both are destitute and living in poverty. One man is injured and on crutches, while the other is barefoot and has only a thin blanket to protect him from the bleak winter weather. Behind them sits a church with its lit up and exuding warmth, a symbol of hope, faith and spiritual support. However, because the two people are so focused on their plight, they fail to see that help is available to them and continue on in their desperate journey.
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also it talks about losing wealth, a lover, and more. I'm scared but i know what i need to do.
